Happy Mother's Day Mom!

Hello Everyone! I named today's blog for my Mom as she has been motivating me throughout this entire process and most recently to blog! Thank you to all who follow my blog to see how the journey is going. It's been about 2 weeks since I've blogged and over all I have good news to share.

Over the last 4 weeks I have had my ups and downs. I have had days where everything has been perfect and I've had days where the food was not the best it could be. I have made bad food choices. I don't mean every single meal was terrible but there were a couple of days where I really needed to be more focused.

This week in Metabolism Makeover class we discussed something very interesting. Fear of success. In the past, when I have lost weight I have always reverted to my old ways. Yes, I did get to a comfortable point and 2 years ago said to myself, hey you've lost 20 lbs, it's a piece of cake from here on out. Yeah right. I gained every pound back. I've recently learned that what I went through 2 years ago and what I'm going through recently is a fear of success. I am well on my way to reaching my goal and this time, instead of coming to a standstill once I've reached my goal, I'm going to set new goals and keep going. I'm going to "get there!" I've gotten so comfortable being in a body that I don't want that I don't know what the heck I'll do with a body I've always dreamed of ~ a healthy, toned, kick ass physique. That's right baby...I'm transforming.

Today Scott and I went to Brunch with his Mother. I feared going a little bit as I knew there would be bad food choices. As Scott has learned, before I go out somewhere, I usually try on about 15 outfits! Well, here's what happened. Some shirts fit, some pants were too big and made it look like I had my little belly pouch still (even though that is shrinking) and then I couldn't decide if it was going to be dress pants or capris. Then it happened... I pulled out a pair of size 14 jean shorts I bought at JCPenny's this winter on the clearance rack for $1.99 (seriously, I couldn't pass up a deal like that and it was good motivation). I wanted to try them on just for the hell of it. When I bought them, I was a good size 20. My goal was to fit in them by July/August. So I grabbed them this morning and tried them on. Yup, that's right, they fit. They were skin tight but you know what, I got my ass into them, and button and there was NO spare tire! I screamed to Scott and started running around the house! I'm sure by this point he was praying I had found my outfit for the day! I screamed "They fit! They fit!" Although I didn't wear them, I was elated! It was I needed to know that I had the strength to go out for a bite to eat and make good choices. I picked up the phone and called my Mother and she too was psyched for me! So, although my bed was covered in clothes, it was sooooooooo worth it!

Oh, and as if that wasn't enough to make my weekend fabulous, I won the Craver Award in Boot Camp on Saturday! YAY! We were on our last exercise and it was high knees. I was standing in place, about 4 feet from the wall and just pretended I was running down a football field. I was so focused and I knew I was haulin' ass. All of a sudden Ben told everyone in the class to look at me and they should all be going at the same pace I was! Oh yeah Baby! I was kickin' ass and takin' names! So, after class, we were all stretching out and Ben said the Craver Award went to someone who has had a long journey with Bootcamp & Metabolism Makeover, has had ups and downs but no matter what, Ben said I always brought my all to every workout. I was BEAMING inside. I just can't even tell you the confidence booster that was. I ate my craver later that day and with every bite I took, I realized how far I've come and I am loving it.

Well, I could write all night but I have to pack my lunch, and hit the hay. Maybe I'll sleep with my skinny bitch shorts on tonight!